Well, my wife’s gone today to visit a friend, and I’m left to my own devices as to how to pass the day. I slept as long as I could. It’s pretty boring without my wife here. I need more hobbies.
So anyway, let’s make a blog post. The political news has become impossible to ignore. TrumpCare is all over my Facebook feed. It’s everywhere you look. How they can get away with screwing 24 million people out of their healthcare is beyond me. Maybe they won’t get away with it, and a lot of them will be voted out of office in 2018. I’m really hoping the Democrats can take back control of one chamber of Congress in 2018. But it does seem that the Democrats have their heads stuck in the sand. Bernie’s trying to lead them kicking and screaming in the right direction, but I think most of them are just too beholden to the corporate money. What we have right now are two parties controlled by corporations and billionaires, it’s just a matter of which corporations and billionaires. The Republicans are just a bit more open about being controlled, whereas the Democrats try to pretend that they’re the servants of the people. Other than Bernie, Elizabeth Warren, and a few others, this is total bullshit. They let the insurance companies and Big Pharma write the Affordable Care Act, and as a result, it’s become a mess. We should have had universal coverage back in 2010, the Democrats had the House, 60 Senators and the President, there’s no excuse why it didn’t pass other than some of the Democrats are on the take from the insurance companies and Big Pharma. And Wall Street owns them all.
Sigh. On to something else. The political situation is too depressing and triggering for me to focus on it for long. I still can’t believe Trump won, but in another way, I can. Hillary Clinton was an extremely flawed candidate, disliked by most people (including me; I voted for Jill Stein). She was definitely the “lesser of two evils”. Now, she was a great bit the LESSER of two evils, but if you give people a false choice, what do you expect to happen? Trump grabbed the change mantle, the same one Obama ran with in 2008, and he won with it. Every election from here until we fix our corruption problem is going to be a “change” election, and whoever represents change the best will probably win. That’s good, because Bernie Sanders can grab that change mantle in 2020 and beat Trump. I hope.
Actually, I fear that Trump will refuse to leave office, that he’ll claim a rigged election or something and try to stay in power even if he loses in 2020. We’ll see what happens. We’re having all these protests and marches, but I don’t think they are doing any good. What we need is a million people on the Mall with pitchforks and Molotov cocktails. Maybe then some shit would get accomplished. It’s high time the American people put their foot down and said no to all this bullshit. But when you’ve got 45% of the population supporting someone like Trump, how the hell do you get anything accomplished? The people are so divided, red states and blue states are practically at war. Hell, I’m interested in the idea of the West Coast states seceding and joining Canada. I just don’t know how we fix this. We may need another Civil War or something similar. We need a Constitutional amendment or maybe even a totally new Constitution to say that corporations are not people and cannot exercise free speech in the form of money to politicians. We also need limits on all these billionaire donors. But how do we get there? We need states to call for a convention, then the convention to pass the right kind of document, then 3/4 of states to ratify it. I don’t see how we can get 3/4 of the states to agree on anything.
Is nonviolent protest always the way to go? It worked for Gandhi and the Civil Rights movement, but they were facing civilized opposition. How far would nonviolent protest have gotten against someone like Hitler or Stalin? I don’t know the answer here. If you’re not nonviolent, who are you violent toward? The cops are just doing their jobs. The problem is the SYSTEM, and how do you break a SYSTEM? Maybe Molotov cocktails wouldn’t do that much good after all. The problem isn’t the Congress, or K Street, or corporations, it’s all of them. It’s everything. How do we fix this? I’ve beaten my head against this problem from every angle, and I just don’t see a solution. I think things have to get BAD–bread riot type of bad–before people will wake up enough to start fighting back en masse. Do we really have to become a third-world country before we can fix things? Hell, we’re nearly there now–it seems like we’re 28th in everything. But can we do better? As proud as I am of Bernie and the fight he’s bringing, I fear that come 2020 he’s gonna get screwed by the Establishment again. They’ll nominate Clinton again or some shill like Cory Booker, and Bernie will be left out in the cold yet again, and Trump will get re-elected. This is my nightmare.
So how am I, as a bipolar person, dealing with all this? I’d say I’m just not thinking about it, but that would be a lie. I can’t HELP but think about it. My wife and I get so much from the Federal government–SSI, cheap housing, Medicaid, food stamps, heating assistance in the winter–that I can’t help but worry. If ANY of those things go away, it’s going to put us in an untenable situation–like, a “we’re going to be homeless” situation. We’re in a very vulnerable position, where we’re dependent on the government for everything. The only way out of this is to get a good job.
Before my meltdown in 2011-12, I was a registered nurse. I’m still on probation for the crime I committed in 2012, and I can’t get my nursing license back until I’m off of probation at the earliest. That means November, 2018. I have to hope I can lose enough weight and get healthy enough mentally to take a nursing job come November 2018. But I don’t know if I’ll make it. My back is so bad, I can’t see myself nursing on a regular floor where you have to flip people over in bed and clean up crap. I could see myself nursing on a psych unit, but that’s about it. And there aren’t that many of those jobs. Maybe I could get a job at an insurance company denying people’s claims, but I can’t think of a more soul-sucking job than that. But I don’t know what else to do. Even if I get my disability, our rent goes up and our food stamps go down and we’re still barely making ends meet. That’s assuming they don’t take my disability for Federal restitution (I owe the Feds about $35k for restitution), which is a big assumption. I fear the Trump budget and what it may do to our housing situation. Right now we have Federally subsidized rent, but what if that goes away? We can’t pay $600 a month in rent. We only have $735 a month in income.
I think I’ve beat my head against this enough for one day. Thanks for reading. =)